Mental Health resources for adults

[Cowboy]

The question is, why did you do all this? 


I am curious about what made you decide to do that? Are you committed to not doing these deplorable things you mentioned?

If you think some time in a mental institution is what you need then do it. It isn't like "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" and only a qualified professional can help you decide if that is the right thing.

It was more like a compulsion, and I guess at least when I was growing up as a teenager, gays were still fair game as far as most people were concerned. In School when I was a kid, you could still pick on gays, there werent many and the teachers didnt really send you to the office for it. It just grew from there. I'm usually polite to people other than gay men. I guess it was also, that I was very good at being bad, I know exactly what to say to really push people and breaking guys especially feminine ones made feel, I cant say exactly, proficient, talented maybe? I'm really ashamed to explain this stuff, but I want to be as clear as possible

I'm just tired of feeling sick all of the time, and I take alot of drugs when I'm not a work, because I really cant stand to be around myself, so I sleep most of the time. I'm pretty high right now actually.

Do institutions report your mental illnesses? or do you have any confidentiality?

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Most to all US states have some sort of county mental health. 
 
As a final note, you should ask for a group that openly accepts LGBT (and pray you don't get a homophobe that tries to "redirect you to Jesus" or something).  Otherwise, you might find yourself in a church sponsored group which typically isn't there to actually help you.

Thank you, I live a block from my county health center, I've gotten Narcan and took a class from them before.

No worries there, I dont believe in god. I'm not anti-Christian, I just don't buy into it.

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It completely escape my mind to say this, but I was outed on New Years day by a coworker, thats part of the reason I decided to try to get better. I can't believe I forgot to mention it, but I'm sort of high right now.