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[ChadCoxRox]

Also I understand that I need to get clean from drugs but honestly right now they are the only thing keeping me from suicide, I need to sort of my homophobia issues first.

Cowboy, what I'm seeing is you perpetuating your own trap in several thinking errors. As a recovering addict and alcoholic with lots of healed junk unloaded from the trunk, laying it all out there to see with all my own cognitive dissonance and having worked with others on behavioral health recovery for many years, I suggest you consider switching it around. If using is the only thing keeping you from suicide yet you must change your homophobia first, I assert you are doomed to fail friend. The poor solution of using to avoid pain will only keep you spinning away from the homophobia resolution. It's a thinking trick and the very best referral I can offer you is the online rooms of SMART Recovery. This form of self help is VERY cognitively therapeutic with an emphasis on sorting out sobriety so you can advance to deeper matters of the heart and mind.

SMART Recovery is NOT a replacement for 12 step groups. It is a separate support strategy parallel to any other source of support and recovery work. It is self paced and thinking focused and so also meant to be trauma sensitive and supportive of real change in the here and now while building a bridge to the deep seated depth you seek. There's the cognitive exercises and practices, the online forum community and local area in person meetings too.

There's no charges so there's really no excuse. They MAIN thing is to be open and honest as you can muster, especially about your thoughts about harm to yourself or others.

SMART Recovery

Wishing you all the very best.