Mental Health resources for adults

[Cowboy]

I had a telephone meeting today, with a mental health professional from my county office. They will be doing that once a week with me until they can open back up full time and offer full time in person services and group meetings.

I havent taken and drugs since the first night I posted this. Its only been ten days but it seems like I have been sober for a month. I dont know if thats good or bad.

The guy I was dating for a few months, told me today that he doesnt want to see me anymore. two weeks ago, I told him about my mental health problems and my history of abuse and manipulation with guys, and I could tell that it made him nervous and uncomfortable. I fully 100% understand his decision, respect. and support him, I probably wouldnt want to see a person like me either.

He was one of the motivators I was using to get better, so that sucks. One of my other motivators was a scene from Game of Thrones when Ian McShanes character says its never too late to stop hurting people and its never too late to come back. Its silly to be inspired by a tv show, but it really inspired me. I have spent from my mid teens until this year hurting people and I like to think that even I can redeem myself.