Taurus
01-04-2021, 10:44 AM
Hello Members,
Just wanted to share my life experiences with you all.
"Words can kill" is an understatement.
From young till now, I have been hurled with hurtful remarks and comments by others.
I am very soft by nature and sometimes my actions and mannerisms can be slightly feminine. And I have been insulted so many times due to this.
- A female classmate passed a remark at me during 5th grade in school, "God probably made a mistake by making you born as a boy instead of as a girl".
- A group of guys said once to me during 6th grade, "If we pull your pants down, you probably won't have a dic*".
- There was a gift exchange event in class once. We were to exchange gifts with one of our classmates. Nobody ever exchanged gifts with me. The gift I had brought was given as an extra gift to one of the classmates. What hurts me is that the teacher did not even intervene to help me out and was just watching the show.
- During 9th grade in school, there was a topic of marriage discussed in class. Everyone shared on what they desired in their future spouse. When it was my turn to speak, someone shouted "He is going to marry a guy." and the whole class started laughing.
- I was also called a local slur for effeminate men in front of everyone in my class. It was really humiliating.
- My relative scolded me once during a gathering for not taking any action to make myself more masculine.
- I always chose to play floorball instead of soccer during physical education class (there were only 2 choices). I was called a sissy for choosing floorball.
- I met a group of new friends in college. I was having lunch with them and I heard some of them whispering among themselves. "Why is he eating like a girl?". I guess I was holding my fork and spoon in a feminine manner.
- My ex-supervisor in my previous job ever asked me once " Are you a half-man or full man?" and giggled insensitively.
The fact that I remember all these bitter incidents even in my 30s now shows how much those incidents have affected me.
I did not ask to be born to be effeminate. This is something which is beyond my control.
These incidents have affected me to the extent that I developed social anxiety and face issues sometimes when I go to public places.
But life has to go on. I'm somehow struggling and trying my best to move on in life.
Just wanted to share my life experiences with you all.
"Words can kill" is an understatement.
From young till now, I have been hurled with hurtful remarks and comments by others.
I am very soft by nature and sometimes my actions and mannerisms can be slightly feminine. And I have been insulted so many times due to this.
- A female classmate passed a remark at me during 5th grade in school, "God probably made a mistake by making you born as a boy instead of as a girl".
- A group of guys said once to me during 6th grade, "If we pull your pants down, you probably won't have a dic*".
- There was a gift exchange event in class once. We were to exchange gifts with one of our classmates. Nobody ever exchanged gifts with me. The gift I had brought was given as an extra gift to one of the classmates. What hurts me is that the teacher did not even intervene to help me out and was just watching the show.
- During 9th grade in school, there was a topic of marriage discussed in class. Everyone shared on what they desired in their future spouse. When it was my turn to speak, someone shouted "He is going to marry a guy." and the whole class started laughing.
- I was also called a local slur for effeminate men in front of everyone in my class. It was really humiliating.
- My relative scolded me once during a gathering for not taking any action to make myself more masculine.
- I always chose to play floorball instead of soccer during physical education class (there were only 2 choices). I was called a sissy for choosing floorball.
- I met a group of new friends in college. I was having lunch with them and I heard some of them whispering among themselves. "Why is he eating like a girl?". I guess I was holding my fork and spoon in a feminine manner.
- My ex-supervisor in my previous job ever asked me once " Are you a half-man or full man?" and giggled insensitively.
The fact that I remember all these bitter incidents even in my 30s now shows how much those incidents have affected me.
I did not ask to be born to be effeminate. This is something which is beyond my control.
These incidents have affected me to the extent that I developed social anxiety and face issues sometimes when I go to public places.
But life has to go on. I'm somehow struggling and trying my best to move on in life.
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