Grief is bothering/affecting me?

[soulfulriver]

@soulfulriver , I am sorry to hear about the loss of your sister, sending you and your family hugs and love.

You should schedule some time to speak with a therapist to help you process your grief.  In the US we have therapists that are called grief counselors, and they can help you.

As for the guilt you feel regarding times you didn't get along with your sister, that is normal.  When we lose someone, we often think of the things we regret,  arguments, time spent apart, and petty differences. 

As Ian said, you need to get yourself involved in other things, and find ways to let go of the negative thoughts.  You need to adjust to the new normal that your life has become.

Thank you @CellarDweller

I feel much better after reading the bold part. I have to work on my guilt as well and try to let it go.