Grief is bothering/affecting me?

[soulfulriver]

@soulfulriver  I'm sorry to hear this news. Losing someone close is probably the hardest thing any of us will have to contend with in our lives.

Treasure those memories you have of your sister, the good and the bad, as they are all part of your shared experiences. Don't let that feeling of guilt get in the way; after all, she wouldn't want to see you suffering like this. She would want you to go on and lead a happy and productive life, as best you can.
You could divert your energy into other activities, as Ian suggests, to keep your mind occupied. This doesn't mean you have to stop thinking about her, it just channels your focus into different areas and can help ease the burden of grief that you're feeling.

Grief can affect people in different ways. Personally, I try and focus on all the shared experiences I was privileged to have with them, in the time we had. I even talk to some of them from time to time in my head, just to acknowledge that I'm still thinking of them. I'll even light a wee candle sometimes, to mark specific days, like the birthdays of people I've lost. Just little things like that. The list of missing people from my life gets longer, the older I become (I have a healthy supply of candles now)

Thank you @Bookworm

I'm also considering to volunteer and help out in a dog shelter. I love dogs very much and I think I will enjoy myself volunteering there. It might be also helpful to shift my thoughts and attention to something else.