08-22-2009, 02:23 AM
Adzie, first of all, 
to GaySpeak...
I don't know what's been said by all (and especially by Shadow) up to now, as I'm not going to read all of the thread right now to find out, but reading diagonally, it seems to me that something might have been left out of the counsel. OK, if someone has already said it, then, it's probably advice to take on board...
You say you are having a depression and that your head (and heart presumably) is having a hard time keeping above the water and not sinking. Well, it may be that you are really depressed, which is a medical condition that can be dealt with. Have you spoken about this to your GP? If you haven't, I would advise that you did. It might also help to talk to a psychologist or counsellor. Your GP would probably know who to direct you to, and if not you ought to see what's available in your area (the Southampton area is bound to have such groups) for gay teenagers... help groups, phone helpline, etc. You probably need to talk this out, and maybe if the depression gets too strong take some kind of medication.
What I'm wondering, since you are only 17, is whether your parents (or tutors) know you are gay... whether you are out, and whether this might have any incidence in you getting help. Please take your depression seriously if all you can do is go home and cry after work. It sounds like you need a little booster or at least something to calm your anxieties. Sometimes we think that we ought to get over our emotions, but real depression becomes an imbalance in the brain and can lead you to be self destructive, as you have told us here. Get medical help soon... and you may one day be counselling someone in your situation with the same advice. I hope you are feeling better and less sorry for yourself.
PA
PS I am glad to see that your boss and coworkers have already eased the pain a bit. You are young and your whole life is ahead of you. As Shadow said, think of how brighter the future can be if you shape it in the way you like.
to GaySpeak... I don't know what's been said by all (and especially by Shadow) up to now, as I'm not going to read all of the thread right now to find out, but reading diagonally, it seems to me that something might have been left out of the counsel. OK, if someone has already said it, then, it's probably advice to take on board...
You say you are having a depression and that your head (and heart presumably) is having a hard time keeping above the water and not sinking. Well, it may be that you are really depressed, which is a medical condition that can be dealt with. Have you spoken about this to your GP? If you haven't, I would advise that you did. It might also help to talk to a psychologist or counsellor. Your GP would probably know who to direct you to, and if not you ought to see what's available in your area (the Southampton area is bound to have such groups) for gay teenagers... help groups, phone helpline, etc. You probably need to talk this out, and maybe if the depression gets too strong take some kind of medication.
What I'm wondering, since you are only 17, is whether your parents (or tutors) know you are gay... whether you are out, and whether this might have any incidence in you getting help. Please take your depression seriously if all you can do is go home and cry after work. It sounds like you need a little booster or at least something to calm your anxieties. Sometimes we think that we ought to get over our emotions, but real depression becomes an imbalance in the brain and can lead you to be self destructive, as you have told us here. Get medical help soon... and you may one day be counselling someone in your situation with the same advice. I hope you are feeling better and less sorry for yourself.
PA
PS I am glad to see that your boss and coworkers have already eased the pain a bit. You are young and your whole life is ahead of you. As Shadow said, think of how brighter the future can be if you shape it in the way you like.
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