feel so insecure i want to kill self

[peterinmalaga]

You are young, good looking and you have friends. Like everyone here I feel for your pain and like many others I have been in a similar situation in the past. You realise that drugs are not the solution and that is good: they will only give temporary relief and in the end they will make your life even more complicated. Visiting the GP is only a good idea, if you have a good and open-minded GP: the same applies to counselling. If you can find a good counsellor, fine – I didn’t! Whether you stay with this boyfriend or not, slowly things will get better and you will learn from the experience and emerge stronger. Deep down you know this and this is why you have not harmed yourself. This may seem trivial but it might help: get a good book – Tales of the city? (google it). I send you a strong hug of friendship from sunny Spain.