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[72jay]

I suspect that because you are very shy, you are also probably quite sensitive...

Your right, I am fairly sensitive as well as being shy

something in your past seems to have put you in a little shell, where you try to protect yourself against something but what?

I don't know why.. i've always been/felt like that

Why do you think people will necessarily want to break your heart if you are genuinely a nice person?

probably since its hard to make/keep friends...thats just something
I've never been good at

Of course the first person you meet might not become your very intimate friend

yep.. a 'love at first sight' or 'first person you meet' type thing only
works in the movies or fantasy. but nothing wrong with 'just friends'
either

(do you want and intimate friend?).

I think sorta yes. It'd be nice to have a friend to sit close with & watch TV
(and/or just talk), maybe go out to a movie or dinner with, or maybe camping...
I guess you could kinda say date.
One thing is I feel some attraction to women, but also a somewhat stronger
attraction to guys...I fairly sure I'm not straight, but other than that
just can't say. I could maybe have a girlfriend if the right person came
along. Due to where I live boyfriend is simply not an option.

If you are paranoid, as you say, do you have any reason to be?

i really don't know

It is obvious that you are craving something at the moment, maybe even though you like being single, you don't like being lonely...

I think the last part of your sentance is probably somethin close to it

You've got to give chance a chance however, or nothing will ever change, will it?

True..very true. I think its just luck though. Maybe if the right
situation/right person came along I'd take a chance ... but they'd
have to make the first move ... (and I'd probably just drop dead
of shock right there if anyone ever asked me out LOL)

Do you belong to any groups of any kind?

there's one small group from another forum and related to a sorta-hobby of
mine. They have a few get-togethers per year...
I think everyone there is married...and its deff not something where you'd
want people knowing you're bi