10-15-2010, 07:50 AM
Anonymous Wrote:Is it possible to "forget" sexual abuse that happened in early childhood? I've been struggling with a lot of psychological issues throughout my life. I'm now 29 years old. I always felt like my father never really loved me that much. When I was a young child I used to get in trouble in school for exposing myself to other kids and drawing X-rated pictures and I had to live with that shame for a long time. In my teen years I tried to understand why I did those things but then I read that children act out when they are being sexually abused. I don't "remember" being abused that way but I used to have a lot of dreams about being molested or being chased by someone who was trying to "hurt" me. When I was a teen I was victimized by older men that I met online. When I was 18 and 19 I used to date men who were in their 40's and can only guess that maybe I was trying to find a "father" to love me. What I can say for sure is that even when I was very young I can remember feeling "damaged" if that makes any sense.
Well it is possible 'forget' sexual abuse. Sometimes the subconscious mind will take a trauma and 'hide' it when its too much to deal with. Its not (in my experience) common, but I have had experience of people this has happened to.
We can speculate as to *if* you were abused, as can you - however I strongly suggest that the best action for you to take is to see a professional who can help you explore the reasons you exposed yourself/drew x-rated pictures as a child as there could be a number of reasons for this. Seeing a professional will help you understand things and deal with anything that you need to. mile: