Letter To My Asshat Of A Brother

[Marvinteck]

Thank you for all your responses. Matt is a awesome brother but he is still adjusting as well and is clueless. My friend Steve on the other hand is inconsiderate asshat and loves mocking people. He has never had a gay friend before so he is clueless as well. My brother Matt will eventualy come around but I just needed to bring this to his attention. Things are getting better as time passes for me. When I first realized I liked guys I went manic. I failed to take the time to come into the closet and get comfortable with myself. I came out to my family and a few friends.

I had to tell somebody because I was unstable at the time and the secret was eating me alive. I had been thinking about suicide on and off for 4 months because I was depressed because I was isolated because of my social phobia. I had even research the aftermath of suicide and what it does to the people left behind. It leaves utter devastation in its wake and leaves to many questions unanswered for those left behind. I also thought about funeral cost as well. I had two scenarios set up in my mind. The only reason I came out was because I couldnt get any more distant from the people around me. As time passes things are getting better. I still break down in tears some days but I have a wonderful support system in place. Ive made it through the worst of it.