10-25-2010, 12:08 PM
My friends and family still are clueless on how low I really was before I came out. My brother wanted to kick my ass for comparing his loss with what Im going through right now. He said its nothing close to what I am going through right now. Yet he has never had to deal with being gay with social phobia so bad he actually had his suicide planned out to the tee. He has never attempted to kill himself either which I have when I was 18. I dont think he will ever understand at this point. Im NOT suicidal now. It just ticks me off to no end he he failing to acknowledge how low I realy was.