Freakin out! And Not in a good way :)

[princealbertofb]

It sounds as if you haven't really made up your mind which you prefer in terms of sexuality, so it might mean that you need both connections, to male and female. And what's more, since no societal or family expectations are made upon you (at twenty-four and being a professional) it just makes it harder to choose.

Maybe you just haven't found that woman or man with whom you have that special connection, that je-ne-sais-quoi, that chemistry that amounts to love. Do you think that if you loved the person, you would find the choice easy to make? Maybe you should give the man for whom you feel the most feeling a bit more of your time and devotion and see if that creates a spark that amounts to love... It sounds like the man or woman who finally got all your attention would be very special indeed.

I don't think your path with a woman would be chaos, but it would certainly mean a number of challenges in terms of having a family (if that yearning becomes part of your life, some day... you know when the biological clock starts ticking) in terms of coming out to friends and family and being happy with it. Are you trying to say that conforming would be so much easier if you could settle for a man?

There is also the possibility that a husband or male partner would not feel threatened by the presence of another woman in your life (you might have to discuss that possibility with him before either of you commits)... you just need to find that rare pearl who will let you be who you need to be and who doesn't expect to fulfil your every need.

You could also not settle just now and keep experimenting till things become a little clearer. After all you are young.