Finally got around to joning

[Dville118]

Hey everyone..

so, I found this place about.. 4 or 5 months ago probably. Hid the tab in my firefox at work for a few weeks and kept telling myeslf I'd join up but.. I never did.

Well I've decided now that I have a few minutes of time to go ahead.

So.. where to start? I'm 29.. just found out as of about a year ago (wow.. actually this month..) that I was gay.. boy.. denial is a powerful thing huh? trying to learn to live.. to date... I never had an interest in dating girls.. so I never really learned to date at all lol.

This whole gay thing hasn't at all been easy for me, but I'm learning to live with it. Been on a couple of dates with different guys, nothing concrete from any of them..

I fell madly in love with a guy from the uk last year.. that's.. kinda how I found out about this. That and other things that were happening at the same time. He has a BF and.. well he's over there so there's no hope for that relationship but still.. I really think it was the first time I ever actually loved anyone... really woke up my emotions.

I'm what I've seen others describe as a "guy that happens to be gay." I give no indications of it, I'm into cars, offroad racing, I can hang out with "the guys" and get along just fine. I can also hang around with "the girls" however.. and tolerate them a lot longer than my straight friends lol. Though I admit shopping with them is quite boring. I can't wear that! Why are you showing it to me? lol.

oh and I ramble if you haven't noticed.

So.. hi.. *waves*