Just feel like giving up

[Rychard the Lionheart]

First of all I want to apologize for starting this thread because I joined GS to make new friends, not to bitch about my life.

As some of you know, I'm still very much in the closet and don't know ANY gay people near my area. As a result the last month or so I have been feeling terrible, I'm surrounded by 15000 people but I have never felt so alone.

My family and I are on different planets and as I said when I joined this forum, the moment I tell them that I'm gay they will immediately disown me if I refuse to see a doctor.

No need to apologize m8, a lot of us have been/is/will be there. Being lonely is depressing and is no fun. Just hang in and try other avenues to find someone. Take a look on the net for your local area, see if there is any gay groups or places to investigate. Also make a effort to secure a place of your own to live, rented or freehold. Then if the parents disown you, you have the freedom to live the way you want to and makes it easier to have friends around you without questions. Good luck and hope you meet someone soon.