10-24-2007, 03:41 PM
Hey Portugal,
In the end you have to decide how YOU want to live your life. You're 26 already. You might end up being surprised at your family. Homo's "out there" and homo's close to home are very often different things. It's easy to mock or make fun of people who you don't love or care about, it's a whole different story when they are your children.
But even if that IS the case. At 26 you have to decide what is your life and what is that of your family. You talk of being lonely and sad.....and for what? So your parents can keep believing you are someone you are not? Are you willing to stay sad and loney to keep this facade going for their benefit? They've had their time, lived their lives...ARE living their lives as they see fit. You deserve no less.
If you want to be happy you are eventually going to have to make the move and do it for yourself. You might even be surprised that they react differently then you expected....or at least will get to that point over time. They might freak out at first, but it's hard to push your child away over the long haul.
Either way though, you deserve to be happy for you, and this will only happen when you decide to follow your heart and allow yourself to be who you really are. Hopefully your family will eventually understand this as well, but if not it's still your life. You're no longer a child who has to follow or depend on his parents but a man who should be leading his own life. One who wants his family but doesn't depend on them for his own happiness.
In the end you have to decide how YOU want to live your life. You're 26 already. You might end up being surprised at your family. Homo's "out there" and homo's close to home are very often different things. It's easy to mock or make fun of people who you don't love or care about, it's a whole different story when they are your children.
But even if that IS the case. At 26 you have to decide what is your life and what is that of your family. You talk of being lonely and sad.....and for what? So your parents can keep believing you are someone you are not? Are you willing to stay sad and loney to keep this facade going for their benefit? They've had their time, lived their lives...ARE living their lives as they see fit. You deserve no less.
If you want to be happy you are eventually going to have to make the move and do it for yourself. You might even be surprised that they react differently then you expected....or at least will get to that point over time. They might freak out at first, but it's hard to push your child away over the long haul.
Either way though, you deserve to be happy for you, and this will only happen when you decide to follow your heart and allow yourself to be who you really are. Hopefully your family will eventually understand this as well, but if not it's still your life. You're no longer a child who has to follow or depend on his parents but a man who should be leading his own life. One who wants his family but doesn't depend on them for his own happiness.
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