My problem!

[2Slippery4U]

Hello all, I'm reviving this thread to the attempt to gain some friendly advice... I'm going to be honest and that might paint an impression of me being a really bad person, or may be I am??

Things between me and my guy are far from ok. Things should now be feeling good as we just completed the renovation of our home and are finally chore free!!

I feel that all is lost, it's become convienece to stay together, too much hassel to split?? Sex has become a chore now rather than the decorating, he doesn't do it for me... I constantly find my eye wandering or hoping to bump into a X or just something to make my day! If he does something wrong or is careless I really get on his case, and hold a grudge for days??

I was reading a thread about the last time you slept with someone, not sex related... Michael described how he lays with his partner with all barriers down and feeling wanted and loved... I want/need that feeling, I want to be loved, I want to feel crazily in love with someone again, someone to make my heart miss a beat when ever I see them

I conclude by the nail in the coffin. I have kinda cheated on him, not penetrative... but enough.

What a mess??