sexuallly confused

[fenris]

well i am in the closet and i have two friends who came out and they completely changed they wear make-up and everything how messed up is that but i don't want to be like them but i seem to be the only one out of them that gets aroused by the hot jocks in school and they are into drugs now and my brother and dad seem kinda homophobic cause their perceptions are all off of TV. but i don't wanna come out like now cause (this i sreally un fair but) i have a girlfriend but when i wank i dont think of her i think of thr hot guys from school !
i'm so confused i know im gay but i think i just need a next step any ideas !:confused:

Hi and Welcome :-)

at first I want to say : Do and be like YOU want.... find you own way of being gay. You have not to use make-up... you have not to wear woman clothes... it is OK if you want it... but when it is not your way.. why you should do it ?
There is a old saying : Same brothers wear same caps ... and thats not true.. I can be gay but I have not to do what other gays do.
If you don´t want to come out ... it is OK .... your coming out is your own very private decision and you should do it if you feel that the time is right. The right time can be with 12 Years ... or with 68 ... important is that you - and only you - want to come out.
The next step can maybe be to find your own way of being gay.... learning what you want, what you feel... learning about yourself and learning to be a proud gay man who has nothing to hide.
I always say the most important goal is to grow up to a fair, proud and social integrated man.