Dumped 2 Months Ago And Feeling Really Down Now

[RegularNiceGuy]

Yes that was me. And he came back in January and we gave it another go. To call me a trainwreck because I gave a guy that I had been with for 7 yrs (at that point) is a tad overboard. Im a pretty loyal person, and when I committed to him, I felt he deserved that second chance. And it didnt pan out.

I've been thinking about seeing a counselor or something. I just have some bad days were the depression is crushing. Ive always played sports, but I am now doing more in the gym instead of relying on just the outside sports to keep me in shape. And I do write a lot, and have set some goals for 2012. I even participated in a Polar Plunge event on Saturday, which Ive always wanted to do but never got around to it. So that was positive, though at the time it was kind of negative because I had nobody to share the experience with.

I'm sure theres someone out there, but Im not into gay bars or clubs. Well, clubs or bars in general. So who knows how I will find anybody. Internet seems to be an endless supply of men looking for sex, which is fine for guys who can handle that...but Ive never been a hookup guy.

At least I got through New Years without hearing from him. And just before we broke up he was seeing a counselor and as much as I find myself hoping for the absolute worst for him...to fall on his face... I guess truly I dont wish any ill will.

Love sucks.