02-14-2012, 12:56 AM
Sometimes I think not having a boyfriend would have been better. At least, not so long term.
Anyways, I thought I'd update you guys since its been awhile since Ive been on here. Trying to stay busy at work.
So my boyfriend and I shared a few texts and the joking around was still there. He tried to keep it light, very friendship like, but Im not looking to be his friend. After 8 years, to be dumped and go back to being a friend... unlikely.
So I apologized about not being able to go to Florida and he apologized for pushing the issue, considering I was going through bankruptcy and didnt have the time at work. However, he is not interested in getting back together. He says he loves me and I made him happy and he misses me a lot, especially during the down times. Misses coming home to me... but he thinks there might be something "better" out there. He is having a long distance relationship with a 43 year old man from Florida (My ex is 28) and he plans on doing some traveling with him throughout the year before he moves down there by the end of the year.
I am crushed. I thought we would get back together because the fight was so dumb. I made compromises to do more traveling and go out to the bar more often but he just wants to quit his job and pack up and move down south. I keep having really bad depression because we've been together a long time and he was a part of my family. He didnt have a good upbringing so his family is almost non existent. So his ties are deep here with me and mine.
He really tried to pressure me to be friends and wants to be able to go out to eat and be able to talk and catch up. I told him he just wants his cake and to eat it too. He wants us to be there for each other when we're having anxiety attacks, he wants to be able to go out to eat and movies, and he doesnt deny we could end up having sex again. So its like he still wants everything that comes with the relationship, except for the label, so he can still pursue this guy from Florida.
Makes me sick to my stomach to think hes gone for good. And I just want to yell at him and I want to facebook message this guy and send him a long nasty email telling him hes a jerk for getting involved with a guy who was already involved in a relationship and hes 15 years younger than you... ARGH!
Anyways, I thought I'd update you guys since its been awhile since Ive been on here. Trying to stay busy at work.
So my boyfriend and I shared a few texts and the joking around was still there. He tried to keep it light, very friendship like, but Im not looking to be his friend. After 8 years, to be dumped and go back to being a friend... unlikely.
So I apologized about not being able to go to Florida and he apologized for pushing the issue, considering I was going through bankruptcy and didnt have the time at work. However, he is not interested in getting back together. He says he loves me and I made him happy and he misses me a lot, especially during the down times. Misses coming home to me... but he thinks there might be something "better" out there. He is having a long distance relationship with a 43 year old man from Florida (My ex is 28) and he plans on doing some traveling with him throughout the year before he moves down there by the end of the year.
I am crushed. I thought we would get back together because the fight was so dumb. I made compromises to do more traveling and go out to the bar more often but he just wants to quit his job and pack up and move down south. I keep having really bad depression because we've been together a long time and he was a part of my family. He didnt have a good upbringing so his family is almost non existent. So his ties are deep here with me and mine.
He really tried to pressure me to be friends and wants to be able to go out to eat and be able to talk and catch up. I told him he just wants his cake and to eat it too. He wants us to be there for each other when we're having anxiety attacks, he wants to be able to go out to eat and movies, and he doesnt deny we could end up having sex again. So its like he still wants everything that comes with the relationship, except for the label, so he can still pursue this guy from Florida.
Makes me sick to my stomach to think hes gone for good. And I just want to yell at him and I want to facebook message this guy and send him a long nasty email telling him hes a jerk for getting involved with a guy who was already involved in a relationship and hes 15 years younger than you... ARGH!
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