This is my story...the first its been told!!!

[countyboy]

I am 21 years old, and I am gay. Wow this feels weird because up until this point i've never even told a stranger. I live a pretty good life right now. Everyone thinks i'm straight, just looking for the right girl (is what my mom says). I have a lot of friends (all straight). I own half my dads business. I own my own house. Very close to my parents. I go out and have fun. But I am very lonely...only I know that because i choose to hide it. It sucks, I would love to come out to the world but i am just not ready. I just wish I was straight, have a wife and kids you know. I can only imagine what my parents will say. And
I have very nice things...all paid for by my business. And I am afraid that if i come out, my dad will disown me and then what will i do (financially that is). There is a lot more to it then this and sorry if my context is confusing, this is my first time talking about any of this. Please feel free to give any input and ask any questions. I wouldn't mind a gay cyber friend(s) lol

I can def relate bub. I have always hidden it. Nobody even suspects and just like you my mom thinks i am waiting for the right girl and "the time will come" haha. The only thing I can tell you is that being my almost 30 now. As I look back I think it would have been easier to do in my early 20's. I deffinatly feel like I have lost ten years trying to hide in the closet rather than trying to find some happiness. I really wish you the best of luck.