My turning point, almost my death

[Nick9]

hearing my mother say "Oh that poor bloke, must have lived a very loveless life. Just hope the best for him in the future".

Zet

I am afraid I know where you are at right now. But I think, for every one of us works something different. All you need to do is to try and never give up.

I remember I felt better when working - when I needed to concentrate on manual work. Walking, taking a shower, sitting next to my friends... didn't help, because I had too much time for thinking.
I missed physical contact too.

The things your mother said were sweet. Maybe you can tell her, that you can't stop thinking about "the guy" and that sometimes you understand why he did it. You never know where you find your best friend. You don't need to tell her everything. In fact, I did that and it didn't work well. I just scared her. I think I should have gone slower, easier on her.
Tell her how lonely you feel, babe
She seems like she could understand