Should I? Or Should I not? I'm dying here.

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OK..t.hanks for the additional information....it does help alot...and I am going to be direct as well because that helps alot too.

You were in a very controlled environment with this guy and thus I promise you he is not the guy you think he is...part of your obsession is that you idealized him and if you had known him in person I doubt you would have these problems.

I believe he told you about the masturbation in order to use a type of peer pressure on you...to make you do the same thing.

Point blank...he was using you as a tool. Your gut is right. He is not who you thought he was. ...take him off of the pedestal you put him on because in a controlled environment he can say whatever he wants to say to get you to do whatever he wants you to do. Tell yourself that and be firm about it...kick your own ass.

I do believe YOUR feelings were real...