02-02-2012, 12:49 AM
You sound straight, maybe curious or confused. I've mentioned on here that I was married to a woman for four years, but we hardly ever had sex and I never wanted to have sex (one of the ways she pieced it together about me), and when we did have sex, in order to "perform" I had to think about men. If you are enjoying sex with a woman (or women), and if you initiate the sex with her (them), then you may want to look hard at that.
Now, this is a personal question: Have you ever been diagnosed with, or have a family history of, Borderline Personality Disorder? One of the hallmarks of BPD is extreme confusion over sexuality. My mother has BPD and when I came out, my straight mom told me she had two female relationships over the years, but hated them, and had a very hard time kissing or even holding hands.
Now, this is a personal question: Have you ever been diagnosed with, or have a family history of, Borderline Personality Disorder? One of the hallmarks of BPD is extreme confusion over sexuality. My mother has BPD and when I came out, my straight mom told me she had two female relationships over the years, but hated them, and had a very hard time kissing or even holding hands.