02-26-2012, 02:15 AM
Hey everyone,
I met a good friend of mine at the mall during this week. I haven't seen her in so long, and we went to Junior prom together. She really liked me at the time too. We decided we would go grab some food over the weekend and catch up on things and what's been going on.
I knew the dreadful question about relationships would eventually turn up during the conversation and I was getting really nervous about going. I told myself yesterday that I would just be honest with myself and with her.
We make it to the restaurant and sit down to order some food and start going over how everything has been and what's been happening. Low and behold the relationship questions start flying and I get really tense and nervous :eek: She asked me if I had a girlfriend and/ or currently dating.
So much was running through my mind during that time and I thought I was prepared for this
So after some hesitation I told her in my situation it was a bit complicated and that was due to the fact that I was gay.
I can't believe how hard it can be to say it for the first time even though I have accepted it myself. She was totally cool with it, but I feel like I disappointed her in some way. Almost like she was trying to spark a relationship with me and now there's no chance at that. (besides being friends)
It's weird after coming out and very nerve racking during the process, but I can finally say after 22 years of being in the closet, I am out. I hope it gets easier from this point on.
Thanks everyone.
I met a good friend of mine at the mall during this week. I haven't seen her in so long, and we went to Junior prom together. She really liked me at the time too. We decided we would go grab some food over the weekend and catch up on things and what's been going on.
I knew the dreadful question about relationships would eventually turn up during the conversation and I was getting really nervous about going. I told myself yesterday that I would just be honest with myself and with her.
We make it to the restaurant and sit down to order some food and start going over how everything has been and what's been happening. Low and behold the relationship questions start flying and I get really tense and nervous :eek: She asked me if I had a girlfriend and/ or currently dating.
So much was running through my mind during that time and I thought I was prepared for this
So after some hesitation I told her in my situation it was a bit complicated and that was due to the fact that I was gay.
I can't believe how hard it can be to say it for the first time even though I have accepted it myself. She was totally cool with it, but I feel like I disappointed her in some way. Almost like she was trying to spark a relationship with me and now there's no chance at that. (besides being friends)
It's weird after coming out and very nerve racking during the process, but I can finally say after 22 years of being in the closet, I am out. I hope it gets easier from this point on.
Thanks everyone.