I remember how happy I was when I got out from the depression. When it came back several weeks ago, out of the blue, without any warning signs and in full force within one minute, I panicked. It seems like this disease IS a long run thing and you better be aware of that and try to mentally prepare.
From my experience the low times are followed by better days, just to go back to bad ones.
Try to see the light that WILL come when the bad days will end. It may not be in a week, but it will happen. Even for you
If you look back, I am sure you will find something that you liked. It may be just wink or look from someone you like, or something you have read and liked.
I was surprised how strong gratitude I felt the other day, when I remembered that I shouldn't have been here for the last several months. It suddenly seemed so pointless to commit suicide.
All that would have happened were several broken people and me not being here to witness those little nice things. I hadn't thought about my family AT ALL at that time. Suddenly, it was not my priority. It was like I was somebody else for several hours a day.
Believe that the real you is not the person who you feel to be during the low times. The real you is hidden there inside you and one day, maybe in a month, maybe later, someone will come, someone who will cherish what he sees in you. I already do
My heart leaps everytime I see you online, I wish you posted more
I like to read what you have to say.