I just had the air knocked out of me

[Sylph]

thanks you guys for caring---I can't believe im not that woman. I cant believe i'll never have that love he's giving her. It really twists my insides. But---you're all right. I have to wish him the best. I did it to myself. it doesnt stop me from being so upset. But i'm going to try and not be bitter. I'm think it's time to really cut him out of my life and find someone else who's better. It sucks losing your best friend and crush in one swoop. I realize i no longer have influence over him- I pretty much am useless to him. Probably my fault. But he's also useless to me. He's just something for me to hate. And thats no way to have a relationship. I have to start fresh. But i cant even think about that right now because my head is full of alot of jabber and i'm trying to clear my mind once and for all. I'll focus on me for awhile. Until all my hesitations,priorities,and emotions are all sorted out. It really hurts, but maybe this is good pain- like pulling a splinter out of your thumb.

Aw Lewie :frown: .

I can sympathize alot, especially because I went through similar with my [now] infamous old best friend[whom I talk about alot here as he was basically my other half].

If you're sure you can't be friends with him, then perhaps moving on is the right thing to do. For you and him, but like you say, it's imperative you sort out your priorities and maybe you'll realize it was meant to be and will help you grow as a person.

I was raised to believe that everything happens for a reason and this was probably a lesson to be learnt, to help you grow and become a better you. Don't view life and it's misgivings as a negative, but as a positive and take what you can from it, because it's there to teach you, about yourself even.

I hope you feel all better and flamboyant as your pretty red hair[I wish my hair was like that ] Lewie :biggrin: .

[GayDatingExpert]

The path to love is never easy, however most of us have experienced something similar. Time to get out there and find someone who you click with and isn't straight.