08-20-2012, 03:32 AM
let start off by saying, I'm not doing too good and may admit myself to hospital this week.
I've been having problems this weekend. I can't trust anyone at all. People say they're when I need to talk but when I need to talk, where exactly are they?
I'm depressed and am having psychotic episodes and I can't take it, I have relapsed. I ended up harming myself and theres blood all over my floor. I don't think life is worth living anymore, I feel everyone is out to get me, abuse me and use me. Once again I'll say it. I can't trust a soul in my life. I have been and am crying right now over it.
Lately, I have been planning my suicide and can't stop thinking about it. I have nothing in my life and never will. I feel like crap and I'm afraid of killing myself in the next few days if I don't get the help I need.
My psychotic episodes are too much for me too. I hate it that all my friends are "normal" and really dont understand what I'm going through or have been through in my entire life. They think it's a joke and it upsets me and makes me cry even more. I can't control my emotions or those sick thoughts.
right now, I'm all bloody and I wanna hurt myself even more...
I'm in hell at the moment.
I've been having problems this weekend. I can't trust anyone at all. People say they're when I need to talk but when I need to talk, where exactly are they?
I'm depressed and am having psychotic episodes and I can't take it, I have relapsed. I ended up harming myself and theres blood all over my floor. I don't think life is worth living anymore, I feel everyone is out to get me, abuse me and use me. Once again I'll say it. I can't trust a soul in my life. I have been and am crying right now over it.
Lately, I have been planning my suicide and can't stop thinking about it. I have nothing in my life and never will. I feel like crap and I'm afraid of killing myself in the next few days if I don't get the help I need.
My psychotic episodes are too much for me too. I hate it that all my friends are "normal" and really dont understand what I'm going through or have been through in my entire life. They think it's a joke and it upsets me and makes me cry even more. I can't control my emotions or those sick thoughts.
right now, I'm all bloody and I wanna hurt myself even more...
I'm in hell at the moment.