11-29-2012, 08:33 AM
ok so i went back to the first episode of x-factor usa. there was this girl on it and her performance made me cry. you could hear her pain in the song and reminded me of my situation and i ended up writing this. its very emotional and at times graphic with some emotions i had used and what not. please read it. thanks so much
Through Hell
I’m all on my own, no saving
Being pushed beyond my boundaries
Felt like my life was caving
In a dark hole, but no body found me
Being called every name possible
My life was getting destroyed
Struggling, my last string pulled
All of my emotions were void
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell
You told me to kill myself
Cause I’m dead to the world
With deterring health
Brain locked into a burl
Pain being caused, it’s sick
I could see blood on my floor
Thinking life was an ugly trick
Lost in societies fatal core
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell
Arising suicidal thoughts
But no one cared, was it worth it?
Death is the only thing I sought
Fighting with my own grit
You exercised thoughtless acts
Beating my soul into the ground
Coming at me in you’re packs
Happiness I searched but never found
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell
Through Hell
I’m all on my own, no saving
Being pushed beyond my boundaries
Felt like my life was caving
In a dark hole, but no body found me
Being called every name possible
My life was getting destroyed
Struggling, my last string pulled
All of my emotions were void
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell
You told me to kill myself
Cause I’m dead to the world
With deterring health
Brain locked into a burl
Pain being caused, it’s sick
I could see blood on my floor
Thinking life was an ugly trick
Lost in societies fatal core
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell
Arising suicidal thoughts
But no one cared, was it worth it?
Death is the only thing I sought
Fighting with my own grit
You exercised thoughtless acts
Beating my soul into the ground
Coming at me in you’re packs
Happiness I searched but never found
I went through absolute hell
Life changes hung upside down
I know I’m me; I am what I am
Cruelty in my lives stigma
But you don’t really care
Cause your out to kill me
Seeing no conviction
You’ve put me through hell