01-11-2013, 04:04 AM
I started coming out a month or so ago at the age of 60. I am now out to most of my family and friends as well as my late wife's family. I practiced gay sex through High School and then moved away and spent the next 40 years living a straight life. I married at 25 and lived with my wife for the next 30 years until she passed away in 2008. Although we were best friends I was never really attracted physically to her. It's hard for me to say that because she always felt I wasn't attracted to her and I would insist that I was even though I really wasn't. I didn't know what else to say. Other then the physical non attraction our life together was great. Like I said we were best friends.
Now since coming out I am having feelings I forgot I was capable of having. I am feeling very excited about meeting and falling in love. When I think about it I get this tingly exciting feeling throughout my body. It is a feeling that I used to feel when I was 18 and going to pick up my secret boyfriend Joseph to spend the night together. I had forgotten that feeling. I also realize that that was the feeling my wife had hoped I would have for her. I realize that I have a very romantic side but it's meant to be shared with another man.
Hopefully I'll find him. Anyway I am very happy that I am gay. I was thinking today that if I were going to be reincarnated and had the choice to come back gay or straight I think I'd choose to be gay so I could live my whole life that way.
Now since coming out I am having feelings I forgot I was capable of having. I am feeling very excited about meeting and falling in love. When I think about it I get this tingly exciting feeling throughout my body. It is a feeling that I used to feel when I was 18 and going to pick up my secret boyfriend Joseph to spend the night together. I had forgotten that feeling. I also realize that that was the feeling my wife had hoped I would have for her. I realize that I have a very romantic side but it's meant to be shared with another man.
Hopefully I'll find him. Anyway I am very happy that I am gay. I was thinking today that if I were going to be reincarnated and had the choice to come back gay or straight I think I'd choose to be gay so I could live my whole life that way.