Counselor Wrote:I used to think this, a sort of "predisposition" that gets cemented in by society. But I was raised in a Christian church, and by the time I was 11, I had some VERY weird ideas about sex for a kid that had never seen porn.
If nothing else, society cemented my staying in the closet.
I would have to agree with this as your experience is similar to mine. Picture the 1970's a being a lot more repressed than modern day, kids didn't get anywhere near the same sort of sex education that kids get today.
At the age of 8 I was looking up boys shorts legs on the soccer field at every opportunity, and it wasn't just to see what they looked like, by the age of 10 I had gone beyond the show me yours, show you mine phase. By 11 lost my virginity.
All this without sex education and not knowing what homosexuality was until I was about 13 or 14 as being called 'Poofter', 'Queer' or 'Gay' meant nothing to me until then.
But yeah, staying in the closet was cememnted in me as well, THAT WAS THE ONLY CONSCIOUS CHOICE I MADE ABOUT MY SEXUALITY.
I never chose to be gay, but I believe I was born gay and I also believe it is highly unlikely to be genetic ENTIRELY. Genes, biology and environment must all have a role in determining sexuality as a large majority of gays and lesbians all say 'Never had that choice.'