im not sure what to make of my anxieties.

[anxiou]

well i came to the internet because i didnt know where else to go.

[anxiou]

well i dont understand why i should have to try out dating a man this is something ive never cared to do.. im just basing that i might be gay only on the fact gay porn turns me on more than straight porn and also becuase since i know i can have sex with man that that automaticially means im gay which i dont think is true,, A lot of this is based on the fear that i might be gay and ive even said i am gay but what you need to understand is that im a very undecissve person and have convinced myself more than once that something may be real even though its been proven that its not.. what do you think about this though.. i see women on tv and know they are pretty but dont get erections unless i am right next to one or am about to have sex,, But when it comes to thinking about men ive noticed i just get immediately turned on even thinking back on some gay sexual encounters i had that were kind of awesome because the two guys were pretty much all over me and wanted me,, and i still do think about the time that i should have a had a three way with these two women and i regret that it didtn happen i guess im just a freak.

[Bowyn Aerrow]

1. Pull down your pants - do you have a penis? If the answer is yes, you are a man, if no, then you are a woman.

2. You are bisexual. Good for you.

[anxiou]

yea i do think alot of this is overthinking things waay more than i should be thats the problem. what is your opinon on coming off as gay and not realizing it?.. maybe through manerisms or speech ?.. i sometimes wonder if im doing this and then comes the freefall down the bottomless DWELL where negativity strangles me.

[Aeneas]

film yourself as you talk to the camera; or when in the presence of others (you need to let them know you are filming if you do this).


once in college we made a tape recording our conversation whilst talking nonsense one night in a friends dorm.


in 20 years i hadnt realised how annoying my voice was. i couldnt bear listen myself talk when they played the tape. yet, i never did realised how i sounded to others in every day conversations.

Anyway once you are done post your video in youtube and link it here so we might better assess your situation.

[anxiou]

I wish i could but the only problem is i dont have anyfriends at this time and the only social interaction i get is at work but thats just with one word answers and theres no time to have conversations with anyone because we are constantly busy with what we are doing.. So im not sure what to do when it comes to meeting people.. I would love to join some kind of SA meetings so i can meet people with similiar issues but there are none in my area and im not really open to meeting people through any kind of other group meetups because i want to feel comfortable around the people and knowing they are all sufffering with socail anxiety and there for that reason then that would put me at ease and maybe i would be able to relate..

[Rainbowmum]

There is not much more I can add that has not been said before .
I would like to suggest some things you can do to make yourself feel better.

Look in the mirror and tell yourself you are a good looking man , you deserve to be loved and you can love another.

Things that can boost your self image are sharp clothes , walking at a faster pace , working on your posture ,working out when you can, giving others compliments , involving yourself in things.
All of these things can and will boost your confidence.