02-27-2013, 06:57 PM
I'm so tired of holding this secret. I just figured I post it here where maybe someone might not judge. So, yeah my biggest secret. Here goes nothing. I've been doing certain things that are usually shunned on a big scale. I've had been doing incestous thing with three of my cousins and they're brother's at that. It had to of started I'd say 9 maybe 10 years ago with my cousin J (whose identity i'll keep secret as well with the others). I won't go into the details of what went on during that time for sake of keeping this short, but it started with him the middle of the two brothers and ended with him. Where he left off the other cousin picked up to fill his place S. S and I had screwed around for quite sometime during my middle school years and that eventually escaladed into getting the younger one of the two A involved in our escapades. It went on like that for years and ended up us three doing things in the threes (if you catch my meaning). Soon enough the threesomes stopped but they both sitll come around looking for things to do. I don't know how I should feel about this at all. At one point it discusts me, but in the other when it does happen I just turn of that part of my brain. It's to complicated. I don't love them but yet I'm physically compelled to do things with them. For such as I this is like a forbidden fruit and I've stuffed myself with it. So now's where I'm at and I'm tired of holding the secret. Now I just don't know what to do with it. So yeah.