05-08-2013, 03:01 PM
I am 30 and have been stuck in a rut for years.
I am way more attracted to guys than girls, but am uncomfortable calling myself gay having never so much as kissed a guy. I am afraid to try to find someone even though I badly want a relationship.
I tried to date a guy a few years back but it felt wrong for some reason. I think it was his high pitched voice and maybe other subtle feminine qualities that freaked me out.
It made me question whether I was gay at all, but all but one of my crushes ever have been on guys. I dated a girl for a while and it was really good at times. Still, it felt like something was missing.
Anyway, what do I do first, come out even though I can't confidently call myself gay or try to date someone even though I haven't fully accepted who I am due to having to hide and suppress this side of myself for so long?
I am way more attracted to guys than girls, but am uncomfortable calling myself gay having never so much as kissed a guy. I am afraid to try to find someone even though I badly want a relationship.
I tried to date a guy a few years back but it felt wrong for some reason. I think it was his high pitched voice and maybe other subtle feminine qualities that freaked me out.
It made me question whether I was gay at all, but all but one of my crushes ever have been on guys. I dated a girl for a while and it was really good at times. Still, it felt like something was missing.
Anyway, what do I do first, come out even though I can't confidently call myself gay or try to date someone even though I haven't fully accepted who I am due to having to hide and suppress this side of myself for so long?