Hmm, not sure I can manage the energy to get that worked up about other people, but I can be far less forgiving of myself. Assuming Albert's not around what works for me is to go somewhere else (silly me I'm always going somewhere else!). If I'm in Norfolk I go for a walk, along the coastal path or on the beach, which eventually involves throwing a lot of stones at other stones or skimming them on the sea. Sometimes I borrow my dad's bike and ride round the Marshland. If I can raise myself to do it I sometimes phone a friend. If I'm in France and Albert's at work I pile up a wheelie bag with as much glass, plastic and paper as I can find and wander down to the recycling bins next to the gendarmerie.
The best thing in the world is to sit in as silent an outdoor environment as I can find (sadly, far less likely in Albert's part of France than in my bit of Norfolk) with a pencil, a rubber a notebook and a music manuscript book and just sit quietly and watch the surroundings while I wait until there's room in my head for music again. It doesn't matter if the ideas are rubbish. There might be something I can salvage and work into something else later. I used to compose at or with an instrument, but these days I find that rather limiting. The music in my head is much more interesting than that which comes from my fingers.
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OK Well driving usually works for me.... I go for a long drive down the motorway (at night) but hmmmm maybe not for you!
A nice bath might help to ease tension a bit. Is there anything that you get so engrossed in that it would keep your mind at bay? I.e. I often find watching family guy gets me absorbed and cheers me up at the same time.
Alcohol is more of an enemy when you're feeling like this - it always makes me cry when I'm in a bad mood and drink lots.
Hope you feel better soon dude. I know what it's like when friends cancel on you (I had a friend cancel on me 3 weeks running - she was meant to come for dinner and i was skint, but bought the ingredients everytime and she cancelled 3 times so as you can guess, i was pretty pissed off!).
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I cant really get angry at friends. If I value their friendship then I must take the good with the bad.
I do sometimes get really pissed with the one I love = he can often be very, very late for appointments but has gotten a lot better...
I guess that I am lucky in that I can just let it go after a short time.
take care and try not to let it get to ya,
frank
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#shakes with frustration#
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