08-04-2013, 12:08 PM
So I finally had the courage to invite the guy i liked to go to my first gay bar along with my friend and his friends. He was iffy with his plans and he was going to let me know if he could make it. He seemed very happy and wanted to go when I asked him so I was really excited. I got the message from his friend that he was going and I couldn't have been happier!
So I get ready make myself look incredible ready for an amazing night, just going to chill and dance and make some new friends! Once we get to the club I text his friend saying, "we are here!" Then I get the response that the guy I like bailed out. My mood drastically changed from feeling good, to feeling complete crap. I had to leave and have a cry. I didn't want to stay there, feel bad, drink to make me feel better, and do something to ruin the night for everyone.
I just feel like a complete loser. I put too high expectations on this night, and ruined it. I mean I would have liked it if he would have sent me a message saying things came up than just completely flaking out not going to say anything. I thought he was just a very shy kid, but he's nothing but a coward.
I like to use negative experiences though to my advantage rather than mope on them. It was a learning experience for me and the positive thing counts. My question though is this, should I hear him out and forgive and forget or is he just not worth it anymore? I have feelings of sadness and anger, but I want to be understanding and willing to give him a second chance.
So I get ready make myself look incredible ready for an amazing night, just going to chill and dance and make some new friends! Once we get to the club I text his friend saying, "we are here!" Then I get the response that the guy I like bailed out. My mood drastically changed from feeling good, to feeling complete crap. I had to leave and have a cry. I didn't want to stay there, feel bad, drink to make me feel better, and do something to ruin the night for everyone.
I just feel like a complete loser. I put too high expectations on this night, and ruined it. I mean I would have liked it if he would have sent me a message saying things came up than just completely flaking out not going to say anything. I thought he was just a very shy kid, but he's nothing but a coward.
I like to use negative experiences though to my advantage rather than mope on them. It was a learning experience for me and the positive thing counts. My question though is this, should I hear him out and forgive and forget or is he just not worth it anymore? I have feelings of sadness and anger, but I want to be understanding and willing to give him a second chance.