I'm so FREAKING SCARED

[ConfusedKid]

Ok so I haven't been on here in while because honestly nothing interesting has been happening......until I started school. At my school there are multiple openly gay and bisexual girls. The other day I told someone I was bisexual but I haven't told many others, though I do kinda drop hints to people I talk to. I figure if they don't ask I shouldn't tell them.
Anyway, what I really wanted to talk about was this crush I have on a girl in my class. She's a lesbian and super attractive plus she plays sports. When I first saw her I literally couldn't keep my eyes off her. I have trouble paying attention in class because I'm staring at her or thinking of her. I don't believe in love at first sight but I think I'm starting to. I get a fluttery feeling in my chest when she talks to me and my mind goes blank when I look at her. I know it sounds cheesy but I'm serious. However she already has a girlfriend.
I realized that I might have a little more than a crush on her. And that made me think that I should tell my mom. I wrote a little speech and had my mind set but when I got home I forgot then I got really scared just thinking about it. Now I think I might do it tomorrow but (excuse my language) I'm scared shitless. I know my mom isn't a bad person and has never had a problem with homosexuality or anything but being rejected is a fear I've had my entire life. I just don't know if I should do it because these feelings I have might not even go anywhere or lead to a relationship. But she is my mom and this is a big secret. Someone please help me out. I'm on the verge of tears right now.

[megumidesu]

aww

sounds like your mom would be okay with it. and if she isn't at first , she'll probably just need a little time to adjust to the idea . she might be a bit surprised . but she sounds like she's cool and loves you (and not being homophobic is always good lol)

as for this girl . are you friends with her ? have you talked to her before ?
if not , maybe start up a conversation and start a friendship with her . find out if you have anything in common


good luck