What do I do?

[princealbertofb]

TIME FOR A BLUNT RESPONSE:

#1. Straight men do NOT WATCH GAY PORN EVERY DAY!
#2. There are hundreds of thousands of "str8" men who got married and had kids (me included) and ultimately accepted the fact that they are gay - even if they only had sex one time with a guy.
#3. Your "confusion" is as much due to 40 years of upbringing, societies expectations on what a "man" should be; religion and personal fear about accepting the fact that you're attracted to men. The fact that you're still attracted to women is more a mental reflex - your near "obsession" with gay porn and thinking about men is a signal that there's more going on between your ears.
#4. The fact that "every-day men" don't trip your trigger, again, is more subconscious blocking any attraction to real men. It's your mind's way of "protecting" you from yourself. If you actually LET yourself see a REAL LIVE man as attractive, then that means you COULD actually one day be with another man.

My advice. Find a really good therapist (one who's experienced in dealing with sexual identity issues - not a priest, pastor, rabbi). Just do it! He/she can help you process your thoughts and feelings - then it's up to you to take the next steps.

Excellent post, Bob... I only read it after answering myself, only to find that our thinking concurs.

[princealbertofb]

On another note, Bowyn may also be right... mile:

[MisterTinkles]

In another respect, you may be interested in the subservient aspect of two men together.

That means you might be feeling you want to "let go" of your "manly" ways and give it all up to another man. Not that you want to be dominated or anything, but Im thinking you might want to be the more "fragile" of the two. I dare say, you want to know what its like to be the "woman" in this scenario.

Again, it doesnt mean you are "gay", but you might also remember that there are a LOT of women out there who get into being more powerful or more dominant than their male counterpart.

This too, is something to think on.

I just think you need to find out exactly why you feel this is so enticing and want to do something about it. It is too easy to get caught up in something you can lose control in. And this type of thing (wanting to "switch over", even for a minute) can be detrimental to your psyche if you dont know WHY you are wanting to get into this.

Im not saying its a bad thing, but its something you have to be sure about before you pursue it.

[princealbertofb]

Again, Mr Tinks may also be right... He's looking out for you, isn't he? :biggrin:

[tavi]

Im relatively positive that it isnt the "forbidden" aspect of other men, as it isnt really an attitude or belief that I have. I have always been open minded when it comes to mine, and other people's sexuality.

But maybe, tavi, you do have a point. as I do find some men attractive on the porn films - and yes they are naked. Hmmm, so where can I go to see lots of men walking around naked to see if that is the answer? That does actually sound kinda nice, if Im honest!

Unfortunately you and i live in britain and winters coming on... not so easy to find half naked men around (except my house of course )

Saunas... gay saunas! Thats all my brains coming up with

Good luck.