sinking feeling that you'll be stuck in this rut forever..

[justbry87]

So a few of you guys already know that I've been taking a CNA
course, and well I passed the course, but I failed one part of the
State Licensing test and am now currently waiting to re-take it again..

But before all this I just worked as a Dietary Aide at a Nursing home, and
before that I just worked customer service type jobs or worked in another
food type places.

I live at home still and trying my hardest to sort everything out. I plan on
saving up some money and I'm praying and hoping that by mid-to-end of
next year I'd have enough money to move out west to California and stay
at a friends place, find job as a CNA and live out on my own since my parents,
well my whole family is pretty much moving back home to the Philippines.

Right now I'm feeling like crap, mostly because I see my friends all going off
into their own adventures and being able to afford things and go places I cannot.
I feel like they've already got everything sorted and planned out, and as much as
I try my hardest it's still never good enough and that I'm forever going to be stuck
in this rut.

Me failing on the last part of that Licensing exam didn't help things either. My
nerves got the best of me and completely bombed on that last thing. I just have
to try harder next time..

But yeah.. Sort of just a rant/thinking out loud type of thing. :[

[matty7]

well I hope you feel better writing all this down m8 - as for your friends, have they just jumped at the first job thing that offers them money ? you sound like your aiming a career that you must like as your still pursuing it - in a very short space of time they'll be complaining and moaning about the dead end job that they hate - been happy in a job that you enjoy makes a huge difference to your life and happiness - never underestimate this - even if that's not the case for your friends ,don't try to focus on what they have - just push for your own goals and eventually you'll get the move that you want

[davearoo]

Right now I'm feeling like crap, mostly because I see my friends all going off into their own adventures and being able to afford things and go places I cannot.
I feel like they've already got everything sorted and planned out, and as much as I try my hardest it's still never good enough and that I'm forever going to be stuck in this rut.

Most of us think that our friends are doing better or having more fun (at least once in a while), but in reality they're not.

You are closer to your own life than anyone else, and therefore you can see all your problems. You can't see your friend's problems, which makes them appear so much cooler.

[justbry87]

Thanks matty7 :]

Trying not to think negatively, it's just harder sometimes specially
when it's something you really want to do and it just seems easier
for others to do it and it's just takes a lot more work and patience just
to get from point A to point B for you..

And thanks davearoo,

Seeing it from that perspective, I guess you're right. Who knows what
problems they might have and just not showing it.

I'm still in the dumps about it, I guess I will be till I pass my exam.

igh:

I appreciate the replies though <3

[MisterTinkles]

Have things gotten any better?

Dont worry, you are working at a goal for your life. For some of us, it takes a little more hard work and a lot more time. But you will get there.

Just keep pushing through and working for your set goals. You will get there soon, and when you do, you will feel so much better for having stuck with it.