I want to be happy for you...
.... and I am!....
I'm just not certain if I am pleased at an unknown individual staring dreamily into your wonderful eyes.... I think I might have a minor bit of bloody jealous rage going on.... Fortunately for all of us I no longer
steal vehicles and drive half way across continents wearing adult diapers to assuage my thirst for blood. So this other dude is lucky... this time...:tongue:
This whole 'pushing people away' and being socially awkward and coming out so 'late' in life (26 ain't that late, just saying) is part of you and who and what you are. All of the good stuff he pointed out exists because of those things you all seem to think are negatives (they really ain't negatives).
Should: A terrible, terrible word that implies that there is something wrong here. Actually no you shouldn't have told him Jack any time sooner, you told him at precisely the right time for everything that followed to unfold exactly as it will from here on out. this is sort of like introducing Chemical X to a plethora of chemicals you have mixed up exactly when that mix of chemicals is stable enough to accept Chemical X without explosively removing half of Chile from the rest of earth....
As for the whole gaydar thing, really intuitively reading people is more along the lines of perception and understanding what it is one is perceiving. You pretty much have lived in seclusion thus haven't surrounded yourself with thousands upon thousands of people and actively sat there and observed and measured and filed away character defects.
Gaydaror any other ***-dar is not a magical, inbred condition, its a form of perception which happens usually automatically from observation and having been around those types of people in sufficient numbers to be able to pull out character traits, personality quirks, mannerisms and behaviors which are often hella subtle.
Hang around 'those people' enough you will pick up and distinguish the subtle and no so subtle hints and clues. Body language screams more often than not, being able to read particular body language is like being able to read/write english - you got to learn the language, you are not born with the ability to read the language.
Lastly, experience V inexperience:
My first was way hella more experienced than me. The only real underlying issue there was that he was terrified that once I got my first taste of sex that I would suddenly start wanting to go out and sow my wild oats. His own personal experienced until then was that 'virgins' tend to get suddenly sex crazed - but then he was only 26 and the majority of guys he had spent time with were late teens very early 20's.
However I suspect that your introversion and your more natural tendency to hold out for monogamy and dedication to your job, your education tells me that when with the right guy you will naturally swing toward total dedication to him and only him, thus you are a low flight risk here.
While you may have a difficult time to
cleave onto a person, I suspect that once you d you will be totally dedicated to them.
So in its way once again who and what you are naturally is in reality a positive, not a negative.
In a way you want this guy to have you in ways no one else has had you. This whole 'Dude I like dudes' thing is a one time, very special 'reward' you have given him and only him. This indicates that he is pretty damn special in your eyes. I hope he is smart enough to fully understand that he has something that no one else will ever have from you.
I said it: "Yes, I like dudes"
estoy muy feliz por ti jaja, recuerdas cuando me pusiste esto?
yay jaja.
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