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Tiny Yacht
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So I still can't sleep. I blame this sore throat and the fact that I'm still blaring Rush at a late hour. I just can't give up this music marathon just to improve my physical and mental standings through a good night's sleep. It would be unfair to the glory of Rush.

Anyways, while I'm up I'd like to do something a little beyond wasting my time. Technically it could still be wasting time, but at least I feel better about it. I just want to say thank you to Andy, this site, and its members. About a year ago I was going through a bit of a crisis caused by a variety of subjects, but included in there was the fact that I started to admit that I liked men.

To those who aren't aware about some of the finer points of my background, this was no small thing to me. I grew up in a highly conservative Christian household. I also grew up in a city that nearly equaled a retirement community, followed with a short time in the military. Needless to say, I grew up learning to be a strict homophobe, and I saw nothing wrong with the logic behind it at the time. This meant that even admitting to myself who I was became a major life crisis.

I've talked about the rest with a few of you here. I also have the luck of bad genetics that made depression a life-long pain in the ass to me. I only recently started to recover from several suicide attempts and a bad divorce because of it, which led to yet another suicide attempt. I was afraid that just one more attempt might have ended it for me.

And then I found this site. Most of the other sites I found just threw around porn and descriptions of lude acts that I really didn't want to get into at the time, but GaySpeak members were really just interested in talking. That's all I really needed, and I was not in any state of mind to talk to anyone that I personally knew. I eventually became comfortable with even that much because of some support I found here, so I do have some people in my life I can talk to now.

Now I may have gone back and forth arguing with some of you here, but I still want to thank all of you for helping me come around just by being here. There's few other places, even now, where I can go to just be open. I know it's kind of cliché, but you folks are a big part of why I am still alive today. That being said, I still reserve the right to slap people when I feel like it. Just remember that there's a big "thank you" attached to that slap.
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#2
We love you Kyle <3 GS would not be the same without you

Bighug
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#3
very brave
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#4
We,ve had our disagrements but i dont think your a bad guy, i have time for you cause i notice you have time for me, thanks. Im now assuming every slap was a kiss and i shall take it in such a manner!

Hope you throat is better in the morn… keep up positive thoughts.
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#5
thumbs up!!!
[Image: 51806835273_f5b3daba19_t.jpg]  <<< It's mine!
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#6
BIG BIG Bighug
GS is the same (or a similar) thing for many of us!
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#7
yea...gs is my online home
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#8
My feelings also this place has helped me thru some rough times.
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#9
Was really happy to read this, Kyle. I share similar sentiments about this place. GS is a very special place.
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#10
Wow......I never knew anything about you Mr. Kyle, other than us talking about Batman characters.

I see the connection you have with Joker now. Very powerful stuff.

Im glad you stuck around to see that there are people out there who have more to offer than "how big is your dick" conversations.

I know we don't see "eye to eye" on many things, but thats what makes you interesting, you think like Kyle, not like a sheep. And thats why I like you.

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