04-08-2014, 09:44 PM
hello everyone, I guess I'm here to try to figure myself out... I know I'm gay and I'm proud to be gay as much as a straight man is proud to be straight, if that makes sense. I don't really know how to say this but I'm really uncomfortable around other gay people, especially in groups. I feel like I don't fit the stereotype at all and don't have anything in common except for the gay part. So then I just start acting weird and I can't really be myself, then I just turn into a jerk. I've been in relationships in the past but the guys were pretty much like me, they never fit the stereotype. I guess the best part of it is that no one suspects your gay and don't get made fun of, although I'm very open gay person. (wow I do sound like a jerk). Sometimes I feel like I'm better than the rest of the stereotypical gay population and I hate to admit to that but I'm working on it so I apologize because I know I shouldn't think like that. I feel like an uncle tom. But they say admitting the problem is the first part. Anyways I'm pretty laid back person, its hard for me to get angry at all and that scares me a bit. I'm also all over the place and very indecisive for some reason. I like to read stupid jokes and laugh at them but then when I tell them, its not even funny. If you want to know more just ask. Well hello everyone and sorry if I'm offended anyone.