My situation is very complicated. I don't want to explain the entire thing because people like to give suggestions and, while they are from a good place, people just don't really get my situation and most suggestions aren't helpful at all. I have no support network of friends so I don't have a lot of options.
I'm living with someone (a parent) who is mentally abusive but it's not a situation I can change since he's paying for a surgery I must have. So it's taking a toll on me. I'm in therapy and all of my doctors are aware of my situation. I'm not in any immediate danger, it's just mentally difficult for me but I must hang in there for another year. I'm also concerned about recovery, which is going to be brutal for this surgery and I'll basically be alone.
I'd prefer not to go into details. Thank you so much for your concern.
Sometimes I feel really alone in my "internal struggles". I have a very supportive partner, great friends, but I still sometimes feel that I'm dealing with something that others can't really understand. And it's hard because it's something I can't put into words.
I also worry that as I get older, I'm becoming much more jaded and cynical in my view of the world in general. I'm starting to wonder if I need to see a therapist.
OkayOkay Wrote:Sometimes I feel really alone in my "internal struggles". I have a very supportive partner, great friends, but I still sometimes feel that I'm dealing with something that others can't really understand. And it's hard because it's something I can't put into words.
I also worry that as I get older, I'm becoming much more jaded and cynical in my view of the world in general. I'm starting to wonder if I need to see a therapist.
My therapist saved my life and gave me the tools to save my own which was amazing....
Uneunsae Wrote:My situation is very complicated. I don't want to explain the entire thing because people like to give suggestions and, while they are from a good place, people just don't really get my situation and most suggestions aren't helpful at all. I have no support network of friends so I don't have a lot of options.
I'm living with someone (a parent) who is mentally abusive but it's not a situation I can change since he's paying for a surgery I must have. So it's taking a toll on me. I'm in therapy and all of my doctors are aware of my situation. I'm not in any immediate danger, it's just mentally difficult for me but I must hang in there for another year. I'm also concerned about recovery, which is going to be brutal for this surgery and I'll basically be alone.
I'd prefer not to go into details. Thank you so much for your concern.
I'm very sorry to hear this, and I understand that your situation is complicated. It does sadden me when I hear what you have to go through and what you must do.
Your between a Rock and a Hard place, I know this won't make it any better, but I've been there. I h@te to reveal my past to you guys, because I'm not at that place anymore.(Things Got Better) It took some time,but my situation Got Better, and I don't have a situation anymore.
WELL, Scratch that, I'm lieing I have 1 situation that recently came up.
However, now a days it just doesn't phase me anymore. I've been through SO much in the past that now it's like the bullets are bouncing off me. (this situation would have ripped me apart 15 to 20 years ago)
Uneunsae, If you have no choice, you have to stay strong. Hang in there,get through this year, and focus on a positive outcome.
(In the back of my mind, If I get really down one day, I'm afraid that those bullets might get through to me)
Uneunsae you are right we cannot truly comprehend the difficult situation you have at the moment in life, so I will not say that you need to do this or do that, but what i will say is even if you do not have many friends in 'real life ' you do have friends on this forum and we are here to talk with if you need us.
Well, I have PTSD and have not been able to escape my abusive family 100% yet and I'm 33. At least now it is reduced to only mental abuse and not the terrifying things I used to experience on a day to day basis. This person is the last I'm in contact with though, and it will all be over after I move next year. Then I'll really be able to work through it all in therapy. Now, I'm in therapy for PTSD but it's more to survive instead of move on. Part of moving on requires removing oneself from an abusive situation. Otherwise the mind does not feel safe enough to let its guard down and process.
Anyway, yes I know my situation well so I guess that's why I never bring it up.
Aaanyhow.. I'm once again frustrated with my crappy part time job. I work in a tiny fast food place where there are usually two people working at the same time. But, thanks to the unrealistic turnover expectations of the company, we're now forced to spend a part of our shifts alone. Quite obviously this is a bit too much work for one person to handle and it all results in a great deal of stress and frustration. And then the people in charge dare to complain about us not doing inventories etc. Well, no shit! Couldn't it be because you don't give us enough time for it?
The company offers some obligatory schooling for its shift managers (like me). What I basically learned from this one day long course is that there exists a big bunch of people working for the company who feel overworked and stressed out. Of course, it didn't cross the minds of the brilliant educators of this course that perhaps this is due to the fact that the company offers most of its employees a shitty pay, irregular hours and too much work for one person to handle. No, they liked to preach the gospel of micro-management skills, preparation and planning. On the top of that we were being taught about healthy diets and getting enough sleep. The message of this is that if you're stressed out and don't seem to be able to get everything done in time, it's only because you're a poor manager and obviously leading a bad life, which is taking its toll on your work. Fuck you.
Thank god I'm only a part timer. And I love my colleagues so I guess I can tolerate the place for one more year for the time I'm still a student.
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