had to be acting charge hand at work as we were short - got lots of pats on the back for good work and keeping my part of the plant going but worried the boss want me to do it full time - im happy being lower on the ladder as dealing with management makes my skin crawl - My boss is great so be a shame to let him down in the future
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I found my mantra for 2016 this morning...LOVE IT...the first verse will be my mantra and the rest my guide in the New Year
DIONYSIAN MANIFESTO
Rob Brezsny
I kick my own ass and wash my own brain.
I push my own buttons and trick my own pain.
I burn my own flags and roast my own heroes.
I mock my own fears and cheer my own zeroes.
Nothing can stop me from teasing my shadow.
I'm full of empty and backwards bravado.
My wounds are tattoos that reveal my true beauty.
I turn tragic to magic and make bliss my duty.
I honor my faults till they become virtues.
I play jokes on my nightmares
till I'm sure they won’t hurt you.
I sing anarchist lullabies to lesbian trees
and love songs with punch lines
to anonymous seas.
I won't accept gifts that infringe on my freedom.
I shun sacred places that stir up my boredom.
I change my name daily, pretend to be nobody.
I fight for the truth if it's majestically rowdy.
I brag about what I can't do and don't know.
I take off my clothes to those I oppose.
I'm so far beyond lazy, I work like a god.
I'm totally crazy; in fact that's my job.
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All my avatars are created by me.
rock on. Or disco.
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Wow, it's been quite a while since I've been on Gayspeak.
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Just read about wishing one wasn't gay. Well I often feel the same way, I feel that if I wasn't gay I would be further along with my life, not saying that would necessarily be a good thing. Just all the crap that you have to go through. It's hard to find someone date-able, most guys just want sex, then you got folks who spread STD's, want to use you. You have the bigots to deal with and having to basically be very careful what you share and who you share it with. Family issues. Then after you go through all that and meet someone you really truly admire, it's praying to the seven gods that they'll feel the same and hopefully want to commit and all your dreams you have will hopefully comes true. Being gay is a pain in the ass.
Just makes me fume that there are people that would swoop so low to abandon their own kid, or make them feel unwelcome, or that they aren't natural and send them away to be "fixed" I just can't wrap my head about the logic of these people. I get that there are ignorant people and I resented being gay for a long time and occasionally now but I never felt it was unnatural or that I needed to be cured or anything like that. Hell I just want to be happy like "everybody else," whoever everyone else is. Funny we get that feeling that everyone else is having a ball, who's having a ball? Some people...but definitely not everyone.
Another random thought. Ever get a gut feeling that something will work out and you don't know how or why nor do you have anything to show that it would? I'd be curious to hear whether one's gut feeling ends up being right or wrong most of the time. I've got a gut feeling about something very important, I don't really know how or why and I don't really have a whole lot to show that my gut feeling is right, but for whatever the reason I feel that it just might be.
"I’m not expecting to grow flowers in a desert, but I can live and breathe and see the sun in wintertime"
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