02-25-2015, 04:11 PM
Drinking. Every drink is meant to be my last (obviously, not my very last, but my last regular drink). I don't want to get sick. I'm not too fussed about drinking, I just do it to pass the time. Also, I kind of feel like I get affection from alcohol. I know that's not true, but it's a wee bit hard to get past that. I just have to overwrite those ideas in my brainicles.
I should say, I'm not a heavy drinker - just a few times a week. But the rest of my life doesn't seem real. Even if I enjoy myself, I think that this isn't real because I'm sober. Even when I rarely drank, it was the same. I should get a hobby. I like playing the mandolin/banjo. Just Irish trad melodies, really, but it's fun.
I should say, I'm not a heavy drinker - just a few times a week. But the rest of my life doesn't seem real. Even if I enjoy myself, I think that this isn't real because I'm sober. Even when I rarely drank, it was the same. I should get a hobby. I like playing the mandolin/banjo. Just Irish trad melodies, really, but it's fun.