My sexual OCD is coming back

[Cuddly]

For what it's worth, I have come to believe the shades of sexuality and how we're all somewhere between straight and gay. I have had sex dreams involving women and been very aroused in my dreams and after waking up. Which is crazy, right? Cause I'm all about the thick bear cocks and hot round, slightly hairy, buttcheeks. Oh and that puff (preferably slightly greyed!) in the centre of the chest. Mmm. Mouthwatering. Yet I dreamt of women on numerous occasions? So what if you're slightly more towards the centre of the gay-straight diagram than you initially thought? You are what you are and we love you just the same Arkansota

[Bhp91126]

Oh, honey-bunny. There is nothing wrong with occasionally being attracted to a nice set of boobs. You don't have to hand in your gay card because of that. You are a young man, hormones raging and the thought of sex should make you hard, regardless of the holes' owner. I often joke that young men want to screw anything that moves on 2legs. Look at which fantasies make you come when you masturbate and then take things from there.

Personally, I hate that people think they have to accept a label for themselves and lose their bearings if something doesn't fit.

Also, being bi is as valid an orientation as gay or straight and you have absolutely no control over what you are attracted to.

[wayward]

It's funny that I've had the same problem as you. Though, describing it as a problem probably isn't the best way to go about it. I have felt discomfort with the urge to stare at large bosoms. I have no intention of heterosexual activity, but there was this one time at work where I was once actually aroused by a woman, and that made me completely uncomfortable. I think it has to do with pheromones.

[Beaux]

Sometimes, when I am mowing the yard on a riding lawnmower, I get a hardon. Doesn't mean I'm attracted to lawn mowers....

[wayward]

I wish you health and safety Arkansota.

[larafan25]

I think it's possible to be aroused by a woman whilst being 100% gay male, and purely so.

However I think it depends on whether it's before porn, or after porn. What I mean by this: Do you have a clue of what is under the clothes? Do you have the vocabulary to be affected by anything remotely sexualized about a woman. Before ever being exposed to straight porn, women were but characters to me, fleshy people without sexual connotation. However now, if I see what I think is a girl with a good-looking body, I have an idea of what is below there, and if even for a second I imagine it, I can be taken back to a place in my mind which provokes an erection. I suppose this means I am sexually attracted to girls, in a literal and physical sense. However it's purely the body which has become somewhat disconnected from the person, which I can find sexually provocative. The face, THE person, the part that is a girl by whatever definition, is still a force enough to repel me. For this reason, and until I can push beyond that (which i never ever ever want to do lmao), I am 100% gay and couldn't be intimate with a woman. Though I don't consider a woman to be her body, but herself.

The mind is weird.

I think any mental barriers we have with regards to the body are perhaps easier for some to overcome, than personal, emotional intimacy barriers.

However if these barriers can be fought, it makes me wonder if we're not all just bisexual.

I'm scared.