09-19-2014, 05:28 AM
A few years back I forgave the guy who cheated on me and we remain friends to this day. I did some soul searching for many years and realized that perhaps I did things to push him away and to cheat on me. I am not trying to justify what he did but I really cannot hate him since in all honesty he was one guy in the 6 years that I actively dated guys that I really enjoyed being with sexually, physically and emotinally.
Back then I was a very angry and depressed guy, I hated my life and I hated where I was at in my life. I had road rage anytime I would drive anywhere and it was hard for me to be happy and I am not sure why that was the way it was and perhaps my boyfriend at the time thought it was hime that I was angry at. I think that we just drifted away and we were both immature and just not ready to be with anyone.
I just chatted with him on facebook the other day and we talked some stuff out and he has been in a relationship for the last ten years and i told him that I was very happy for him which I really am. I told him about my brief relationship with a female and he was happy for me and then I told him that we broke up and he understood. He is a really nice guy and we have talked about if I am back in the area that we would get together and just hang out or etc.
He just happens to be in an open relationship so perhaps some passions will fly between us but it won't be any pressure for that to happen from either of us. I often think about how much I would like to be in a relationship with a guy again but then think about how much I enjoy being on my own and doing my own thing. I enjoy skiing on my own and hiking on my own but then often think how nice it would be to cuddle with another guy in my one man sleeping bag and just holding each other close.
Well anyway all is forgiven and I have no bad feelings for him.
Back then I was a very angry and depressed guy, I hated my life and I hated where I was at in my life. I had road rage anytime I would drive anywhere and it was hard for me to be happy and I am not sure why that was the way it was and perhaps my boyfriend at the time thought it was hime that I was angry at. I think that we just drifted away and we were both immature and just not ready to be with anyone.
I just chatted with him on facebook the other day and we talked some stuff out and he has been in a relationship for the last ten years and i told him that I was very happy for him which I really am. I told him about my brief relationship with a female and he was happy for me and then I told him that we broke up and he understood. He is a really nice guy and we have talked about if I am back in the area that we would get together and just hang out or etc.
He just happens to be in an open relationship so perhaps some passions will fly between us but it won't be any pressure for that to happen from either of us. I often think about how much I would like to be in a relationship with a guy again but then think about how much I enjoy being on my own and doing my own thing. I enjoy skiing on my own and hiking on my own but then often think how nice it would be to cuddle with another guy in my one man sleeping bag and just holding each other close.
Well anyway all is forgiven and I have no bad feelings for him.