I think labels are useful tools to figuring out stuff.
Being able to answer for oneself 'what am I?' goes along way to reaching acceptance and working within that framework. And figuring out what we want out of life and how we go about getting that.
Heterosexuality is
romantic attraction,
sexual attraction or
sexual behavior between persons of opposite
sex or
gender. As a
sexual orientation, heterosexuality is "an enduring pattern of emotional, romantic, and/or sexual attractions" to persons of the opposite sex; it "also refers to a person's sense of identity based on those attractions, related behaviors, and membership in a community of others who share those attractions."
Source:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heterosexuality
Bisexuality is
romantic attraction,
sexual attraction or
sexual behavior toward both males and females,
[1][2][3] and may also encompass romantic or sexual attraction to people of any
gender identity or to a person irrespective of that person's biological
sex or
gender, which is sometimes termed
pansexuality.
Source:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality
homosexuality is "an enduring pattern of emotional, romantic, and/or sexual attractions" primarily or exclusively to people of the same sex. It "also refers to a person's sense of identity based on those attractions, related behaviors, and membership in a
community of others who share those attractions.
Source:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homosexuality
When it comes to sex acts, whether its having your cock sucked or you suck cock, its a homosexual activity.
If you like guys sucking your dick this means you are either gay or bi not heterosexual.
When it comes to romantic feelings, who you are attracted to, who you would like to settle down, get married and have same sex day after day, week after week, year after year for your whole life with... you may be heterosexual.
I think technically you fall in the bisexual spectrum. Which is, if polls and research is correct, is where most of humanity actually lies.
You might be 95% straight with 5% gay tendencies technically 'bisexual' but you can reasonably claim the 'straight' label. As long as you are not actively using 'hetero' as a deceptive ploy.
So some people (guys) you may want to admit that you are bi-orientated if you want sex with them. Trust me, a lot of bi and gay guys are sick and tired of 'straight' men seeking sex with them, this has lead to a decidedly negative opinion of straight guys wanting other guys for sex.
In other areas of your life, say dating women, you can use the heterosexual label since technically you don't fully swing both ways readily.
If you think your special or your problem is unique, I'm sorry to inform you of this but the reality is you are acutely, chronically and totally 'normal' as the majority of people fall on the bi spectrum.
As EXAMPLE: I technically fall in the 'bi' spectrum because there has been two women I would have married, had kids and did the whole straight thing for. Unfortunately they were lesbians and had no interest in me.
I classify myself as 'gay' because all of my sexual and relationship interactions have been with men, and I prefer to stick with men unless I happen to meet the right lesbian, pardon, woman, who does it for me (she will undoubtedly be a lesbian I'm sure).
I do not deny my straight leaning to myself. I'm comfortable with the notion. I stick to the 'gay label' because explaining I'm a closet lesbian just gets complicated. :tongue:
I don't know if any of this explaining helps you to wrap your mind around the issue. hopefully it will and you will be more comfortable with whatever happens.