Hello Tyrion, we know your story, and yes, we hope for you too that you'll one day find a boyfriend or someone to share your life with.
I have some positive news for you. Of course it's not your story, but our friend Joseph who was on here for a while and disabled has found himself a boyfriend. So there is hope. But it does take a lot and a lot of work and research and hope to get to that stage. Your situation isn't made easier by your particular disability.
I suppose you have carers, or your family around you. Do they understand that you are gay and in need of a boyfriend? The thing is they need to know before they can even start to consider meeting those needs. Have you come out to these people? Do they believe you? Some won't. Some won't even acknowledge that there is such a thing as a disabled gay man, but the truth is that there is, and probably there are more than they realise.
In the meantime, I thought I'd send you a virtual hug, since there's nothing much else I can do from here.
Tyrion.
Do your gay friends know about how lonely you are too? Are they people you are in contact with in real life, or are they virtual gay friends?