01-26-2009, 10:52 PM
hi,
i am sitting here comforting my last baby boy rat.. his lived for jus over 3 years which is about 70-80 human years i didnt realise till now that he suffered a stroke whilst i was away.. his layin on my chest not wanting 2 drink or eat.. not wanting 2 live anymore... i kno its selfish of me 2 jus say i dont want 2 go ive lost all my other boys i dont wanna lose him too.. his choosing to jus giv up how can living things do this is there a point when life becomes unbearable that one feels like going??? I feel like a failure if i had not been selfish n that i may be able 2 afford the vet bill to have him put to sleep. his got his lil hands cupped round my thumb as if to say....... dad its time to say goodbye... i... i dun wanna i kno its nothing much being a rat and most ppl dont get emotional over it but ive raised bred and now ive got to find his plot in the garden... l can feel him on way out his twitching in my arm and nothing i can do willl save him... i keep whispering its gonna be alright and sleep now lil one but he keeps lookin at me... im as sorta scared as he is but i wont let go.... to speed time up i got my headphone near him with enigma return to innocence playing and ballin me eyes out.. Y did i not notice sooner his condition getting worse.... i jus hope he goes shortly so his pain ends
in someways death is a blessing n it will b in this one
sleep well baby dad loves ya and bury ya next to your brothers
zeon
i am sitting here comforting my last baby boy rat.. his lived for jus over 3 years which is about 70-80 human years i didnt realise till now that he suffered a stroke whilst i was away.. his layin on my chest not wanting 2 drink or eat.. not wanting 2 live anymore... i kno its selfish of me 2 jus say i dont want 2 go ive lost all my other boys i dont wanna lose him too.. his choosing to jus giv up how can living things do this is there a point when life becomes unbearable that one feels like going??? I feel like a failure if i had not been selfish n that i may be able 2 afford the vet bill to have him put to sleep. his got his lil hands cupped round my thumb as if to say....... dad its time to say goodbye... i... i dun wanna i kno its nothing much being a rat and most ppl dont get emotional over it but ive raised bred and now ive got to find his plot in the garden... l can feel him on way out his twitching in my arm and nothing i can do willl save him... i keep whispering its gonna be alright and sleep now lil one but he keeps lookin at me... im as sorta scared as he is but i wont let go.... to speed time up i got my headphone near him with enigma return to innocence playing and ballin me eyes out.. Y did i not notice sooner his condition getting worse.... i jus hope he goes shortly so his pain ends
in someways death is a blessing n it will b in this one
sleep well baby dad loves ya and bury ya next to your brothers
zeon